Reflectional Relapse...
---Working on part two of murder series intro---
---Explaining further into the initial psyche break, that leads to the murderous black-outs. Showing more into his life before-hand, (debating between relationship incident causing initial vigilante mentality. Victim to criminal aspect.---
---Following piece written as he griefs for loved one---
(Chapter 2: Reflectional Relapse)
I'm falling at such a slow pace
I've left everything behind, there's nothing left to trace
Among the meadow of mindful mischief
I found the one thorn filled with grief
Are you not here anymore among the smiles so bright
I see you, when I close my eyes at night...
The dreams follow with a night of tiresome intention
I lose composure at a single word of your mention
I'm tired, but I continue on, as I promised before your eyes closed for their final farewell
I try my best, but at time, I'm filled with regrets, in my own personal hell...
I don't want to remember the bad, but the best wasn't long
I miss the happiness, that enough, I know is wrong
Your touch, smiles, & scent drive me to insanity
I've thought of them till they were real, searching for them, frantically, till I'm sure I've left humanity...
I don't want, I need
I'll give it all, for one final day of greed...
Take me before tomorrow
Else I'll just feel sorrow
I'll deny no bullet, no knife, or wire
I only want my one & final desire
I just can't bring my hand to take what was always yours, what's left of me
I need help I can't ask for, so, so I can finally be free...
Freedom isn't something you can find
You can look, but it's truly only in mind....
I'm broken, I'm sorry....there's not a day more I want to live...
...please...someone...fate or otherwise, take what I have left to give....
....until then, I'll see you again, in dreams filled with tears...
It's only been a day since you've left, I can't do this for years...
(Death only the beginning of life's end...)
(Time makes certain the curtain of a dream begins to bend)
---Thanks for reading---
---Always---