The sad but true part 1
I was a mess , his seed dripped from my gaping hole as I panted and caught my breath on the floor. My furr was creamed and untamed as he began to get dressed. His name was Trevor, he was a lion, he was my friend. My name is Frank, I'm just a dog. He finished getting dressed as I finally caught my breath he forgot his shoes as he left my bed room and walked yo the kitchen, but I don't think he cared. I put on my pants and my shirt and followed behind him, we sat at my table as he drank a beer.
Trevor - are you ok now
Frank- I don't know
Trevor - I gave you what you wanted right
I couldn't make eye contact. There was nothing to be ashamed of but I felt as if I was still naked, god knows my ass was still leaking.
Trevor - I gave you what you needed and you know I'm happy I was the one to do it
Frank- I know, but
I couldn't finish my thought, my tongue caught it's self.
Trevor - but what , look I know I'm your friend but this doesn't mean anything, I'm still your friend , sex is just sex
He took a sip of his drink before he continued.
Trevor- it's just sex
I looked away as he continued to drink until he finished his drink got up from the table and left my apartment. The second he closed the door and I was alone I began to cry. Sitting at that table crying with my ass draining out into my pants in that dimly lit room I felt worthless, like a slut. I let my best friend fuck me like a bitch. I let him use me over and over again so many times that night. If only he knew that he owned Mr , if only he knew I would gladly be his pet. It wasn't just sex , not to me. But it's the only way I can ever have him.
So I'll let him come back whenever his cock may wish. I'll spread myself open and take him and all he has to give for what little it may be it means the world when his very touch feels like a warm eternity. And I'll be a slut , forever wanting what I can't have but grasping at the closest thing to it that I can find. His love will never be mine. .... great now I've gone Shakespeare.
It was the day after me and my best friend had crossed a line. We were at work , we both had day jobs at a local radio station. We didn't really know what we were doing and the job had no title but it was an easy job that allowed us to spend time together just hanging out all day. That day felt so different from the rest , it was clear nothing had really changed for Trevor but I felt like I was in a whole other world. We've been friends since I was born , his family and mine have always been next door to one another. But after having sex it was as if he'd changed, he was a different person to me.
We sat at our shared desk area looking up news for the radio host to possibly discuss on air. He was his usual funny self making the day fun and I was my usual serious self keeping us somewhat on track.
I started to forget what we had done as the day went by. It seemed that talking about everything but what was on my mind was slowly getting it off my mind until I finally forgot it all together. But then it happened, I was mid laugh when he brought it back.
Trevor - so do you wanna do what we did yesterday again after work
My laugh cut as my eyes went from playful and relaxed to focused and centered on him. I didn't respond.
Trevor - I said do you want to redo last night, hello Frank , Franklin, Franky anyone home
I came back to my senses.
Frank- oh um sure, why not
Trevor - you can say no if you want to , I know I'm your best friend but you can tell me if I'm a lousy fuck
Frank- no you were great, I loved it
Trevor - you loved it
Frank- I mean you were good , it was fun , not that I loved anything
Trevor - alright, well I'm glad you were straight forward with me about you being into me
I gulped as I was honed into his every word.
Frank- yea
Trevor -yea , I mean dude if you had told me sooner I could have been fucking you since college
Frank - weren't you with Mary when we were in college
Trevor - yea but I'd still make time to give my bone to my best pall
Frank- don't call your dick a bone
Trevor - what , don't dogs like bones
There was a pause.
Trevor - ok my dick is not a bone , but you will have it in your mouth tonight
Frank - yea
He lowered his smile and put on a more serious face.
Trevor - but I feel like I should remind you , it's just sex for me
Frank- I know
Trevor - I mean I know your gay but I see you as a friend and that's all
Frank- I know, I get it
Trevor - cool , then I'll be over at around 8 or 9
Frank- yea , that sounds good, do you wanna do it at my place again or yours
Trevor - your place is cool
We went back to typing and seaching. The rest of the day was spent quietly working, Trevor was still plenty alive all day but it was clear I wasn't in the mood to socialize.
I returned home to my apartment tired from work. I didn't have much time before Trevor would be by so I didn't try to clean up. He had already left stains in my carpet from the last night so I doubt he would care about a few clothes on the floor or soda cans on my tables.
He arrived, he walked casually already shirtless and without shoes. His pants were already loosely fit so they barley stated on him as he walked from my front door to my living room. He sat on my couch and began to undo his pants.
Frank - wait wait , you just got here
Trevor - oh sorry bro , I just thought youed wanna get right to it
I came and sat beside him on the couch. We didn't say anything. His cock was already clearly up and tenting something fierce in his pants. He began to title his thumbs and I realized I was making us halt when he was already at full speed.
I wanted to see if we could be more than just a quick fuck. He was already my friend but despite his warning of his inability to be more than a sexual partner I still needed to try. My problem was figuring out how to change his mind without directly asking him to. And as I thought up ways to make him see me as more than a friend his little friend grew more impatient.
Trevor - so are we gonna do this
I snapped back to reality.
Frank - yea of course , I didn't invite you over to give you blue balls
He laughed happily as he finally undid his pants and slid them off.
Trevor - I'll let you do what you do
He grabbed the tv remote and flipped on the TV. He got comfortable spreading open his legs and putting one of his feet up on my coffee table. As he got comfortable I layed my head in his lap and took his cock in my mouth . He moaned lightly at the feeling before he put a hand on the back of my head. He didn't force me or anything, he just stroked my head running his fingers through my hair as I sucked him.
His moans grew more vocal as I started to take him balls deep, a task that was not easy to Bo with a cock bigger than a water bottle and just as thick. I gaged and drooled all over his cock and balls getting his lap sloppy and wet but it was clear he didn't care. His toes crinkled every time I slid off and I could feel his cock coming close with every throb and the dripping of pre almost at the level of a flood.
Trevor - dude, I'm glad you told me your gay , you give some of the best head ever
He pulled me off of his cock by the back of my head. I caught my breath as pre and saliva dripped from my face.
Trevor - you don't want me to finish in your mouth do you , or does it matter to you
Frank- whatever you want to do is fine
He moved his hand from the back of my head to the side of my face and piped his thumb in my mouth. I sucked it as we looked each other in the eye, he smiled at me with a friendly yet cheeky smile.
Trevor - look dude let me be honest, last night was unexpected but I loved it and I know you did too , but I also know why you loved it so much , and I think it's pretty cool you can get past the fact that I'll never see you as more than a friend
He pulled his thumb from my mouth and rubbed it clean on my chest.
Trevor - you wanna kiss me right now don't you
Frank - yes
Trevor - see that's what worries me dude, I know you have a thing for me , and doing all of this is supposed to be fun for me and a way for you to get over me , but is it working that way
Frank - what do you mean
Trevor - are you getting over me or is this just making you more into me
I couldn't respond. Instead I got up and sat in his lap , his cock was hard and long as it slid in me. He smiled and shrugged his shoulders saying ok as he gripped my waist and helped pull me down his shaft.
I layed my head on his shoulder as he bucked upwards into me fucking my ass loose with every thrust.
I wined and cried in both pleasure and pain and this only made him go harder. He took me and layed me on my back in the couch without removing his cock as he began to pile drive my ass. The sound of his thighs and my ass clapping became rhythmic as he was unrelenting. Our tails joined together tightly as I could feel him about to erupt.
He did 3 final thrust and on the last he pined me down with his body laying flat on mine as he cumed.
He started to stroke my head again as his cock plugged the cum in my ass.
Trevor - your a good friend, and I'm sure you'll get over me eventually, but until then
He pulled out and his cock was dripping cum and my ass began to drain.
Trevor - my cock and your ass can hang out as much as you need
I said nothing as I layed there . He sat on the floor and watched more TV as I layed on the couch. He didn't get dressed and really I forgot that we were naked after a point.
We ate whatever was in my fridge and after that he had me suck his cock again, this time he let himself cum in my mouth. I think I fell to sleep with him in my mouth.
I woke up with his cock still in my mouth, he was still sleeping. As I got up and sat up in the couch I felt my throat was sore. There was cum stains all over my face making my skin and furr tight. He began to wake up and as he did I went to my bathroom. I washed my face as I heard him through the door. He got up yawned went to the fridge and then started getting dressed. As a dog my hearing is pretty good so I also heard his grunts and moans from what I assumed was because of his sore dick.
I left the bathroom. I noticed I was still naked as he was finished putting his clothes on. It was a little awkward but that feeling faded as I saw him step in cum on my carpet with his bar feet. I laughed and he did too.
Trevor - so I guess I'll see you at work after you get cleaned up .... and dressed
Frank - yea
Trevor - you really wanted it bad last night, you even went to sleep sucking me off and I've never had that happen before
Frank - what can I say, but I guess you realy wanted it too
Trevor- yea I had a few loads pent up , but anyway I'll see you at work
Frank- alright
He started walking to the front door and I walked him out.
Trevor - oh and don't forget to brush hard , wouldn't want the coworkers to know I banged your brains out
Frank -I wouldn't say you banged my brains out
Trevor - banged them in
Frank- never mind, I'll see you at work
He walked out and closed the door behind him. I went to take a shower. It was a long shower, so long the hot water turned cold. I leaned against the wall letting the water run through my furr and as it did I allowed it to drown out my cry. I wanted him so badly but he's just a friend, nothing more. Leting him fuck me didn't make it easier to get over him. I thought if I had him just once then maybe I wouldn't have thoughts of what if, but allowing him to use me has only made me want him more. Before I let him have me all I had were thoughts, but now I have questions. If I love him this much as a friend and this much as a fuck , what could he be to be as a partner, what could I be to him. I've been alone for so long and in his embrace I feel a warmth unknown to me.
As the water finally was too cold to stand I got out and got dressed.
I was on my way to work ,I could drive but the radio station is so close I like to walk. I passed my usual check points , the coffee shop where where I got me and Trevor's favorite donuts. Then I passed Mr.Romero's place, he was my high school principal but now he's just a cranky old horse that likes to remind people of the good old days. No one really visits him, his house is just at the center of town so it's hard not to pass him.
My last stop before getting to work was at the library. I'm not proud of myself but me and Trevor from time to time get into more than just drinking. The neighborhood weed dealer is an avid reader so the library is the usual spot of transactions. His name is Daren a 20 something year old meerkat, he's your typical drug dealer with a twist. He never does any of his own drugs, but he seems to have such a natural high that he doesn't need to.
I don't usually buy anything from him without Trevor with me but I felt like I needed a pick me up and I didn't want Trevor to know why. The hard part about buying weed from Daren is that you have to find him first. You always know he's in the library but the library is 4 stories tall with multiple sections, and like I said Daren is an avid reader so he's never in the same spot twice.
It's a good thing my job is so laid back because it took me about 30 minutes or so to find him. He was on the rooftop reading some dead poet's novel.
Frank - I've been looking everywhere for you
Daren- well I suppose that is why it has taken you so long to find me
Frank- what
I approached him , he was standing pretty close to the edge of the building almost dancing near the edge as he read from his book.
Frank - why are you up here
Daren- the wind helps open the mind Frank , but what are you doing up here
Frank - I need
Daren- a job , sorry can't help you
Frank - no , I need
Darren - a prostitute, those are usually over on 9th
Frank- no, what I need is
Daren- love
Frank- for the love of god , I'm trying to say I need weed
Daren - you don't need weed, you want weed ,there is a difference
I face palmed myself.
Frank- can we not do the whole philosophy thing right now , I'm kinda running late for work
Daren -you don't need weed , what you need is relief
Frank -and we're doing the philosophy thing aren't we
Daren -your a very troubled and lonely person Frank , you think you hide it well but I can see a shadow over you black enough to cast 3 shadows
Frank- I'm not lonely and I'm not troubled
Daren - now let's not start telling lies Frank , if you didn't have Trevor who would you call a friend
I had to pause for a minute to think.
Frank - I guess you
Daren - I'm not your friend, I'm your drug dealer, now maybe if you came to see me other than when you need weed you could call me your friend, but you don't so I'm not
Frank - so what , I have a best friend who cares if I have a lot of friends or not, I have one that counts
Daren - maybe but do you really see him as a friend
I stepped back in slight shock from the question.
Frank - what's that supposed to mean
Daren - your gay aren't you , now I don't mean to be offensive but some of the behavior between you and Trevor is alot more close than just friends, and a good amount of it comes from your end
Frank - your crazy, you don't know what your talking about
Daren - I see it every time you two come through here, you cling to the guy like a life line, and I've never seen you with anyone else or even heard of you being in a relationship, but I know Trevor has plenty of friends and he's no stranger to clubs and parties and I think even 9th street
Frank -can I just get my weed already
He stepped away from the edge of the building and got close to me. He looked me in my eye without blinking.
Daren- money
I frantically searched my pockets and gave him a 50 and then he tossed me a bag.
Frank - thanks
He walked back to his edge.
Daren - any time , but when your ready to talk about what you really need get back to me, you don't have to be lonely
Frank - I think I'll pass on the impromptu therapy , but thanks for the offer I guess
Daren -suit yourself, but my offer is on the table
He returned to his reading as I went on my way.
I finally got to work about two hours late but Trevor covered for me by telling our boss I was looking into a story.
I settled into my desk across from Trevor and got to work. I didn't want for what Daren told me to get to me but it did and as the day went on my need to say something to Trevor grew. At break time I pulled him into a storage closet.
Trevor - did someone not get enough last night
Frank - what, no this isn't a sex thing
Trevor - oh , well we are in a closet so it could be
Frank - no not right now , I wanted to ask you something
Trevor - what about
Frank -do you think it's strange that your my only real friend
Trevor - I'm not your only friend
Frank - yea you kinda are, and I've never realy met any of your friends
Trevor - sure you have , remember that Christmas party just a few months back
Frank - that was a company party , and I wasn't there
Trevor - I know you were at that party , we both got waisted and woke up the next morning in some guys lawn
Frank- that wasn't me , that was Jared from accounting, there are pictures on Facebook
Trevor - oh, well it doesn't matter , you wouldn't like most of my friends anyway
Frank - but I'm your best friend, don't you at least want me to try
Trevor didn't say anything, he looked away as he scratched the back of his head.
Frank - you do want me to meet your other friends right
Trevor - look dude your my best friend but your clingy , and it's because your into me which we both know I'm fine with but I don't want people thinking we're together
Frank - that's really what you think , that I'm just some clingy guy that's into you
Trevor - I'm the only person you talk to , im the only person who has ever seen the inside of your apartment, you buy me donuts everyday , we work together and your always around me, hell you let me fuck the shit out of you knowing I won't ever love you
I couldn't speak as a gulp in my throat wouldn't go down.
Trevor - yes your my friend, your my overly attached friend , your my sad lonely friend, your my friend that I feel kinda sad for and maybe if I wasn't afraid of you being the way you are around me with other people I'd let you meet my friends but maybe what you need is to find more of your own
Frank- I see
Trevor - I don't mean to be a dick but I'd be hurting you if I wasn't a hundred percent honest
Frank- it's fine , I understand
Trevor - we're still cool though right
Frank - yea your just being honest
Trevor - cool , so tonight then
Frank- what
Trevor - you wanna hang out again tonight
Frank - no , you just told me I'm a sad lonely clingy friend, I think the last thing we should be doing together is having sex
Trevor - dude , you are who you are, your clingy and your into me and that's not about to change over night
Frank - I'm not sleeping with you
Trevor - come on don't be like that
Frank - I said no , and you know what I think it's time to get back to work
I started opening the door to leave but he caught my hand and stopped me.
Trevor - dude you give like the best head ever just say we're good so I can come over tonight
Frank - I said No
I started fighting to get out of the closet and when I did the door swang open and I fell to the floor.
Trevor - not cool dude
He stepped over me and left me to get up by myself.
The rest of the day was long. Sitting across from each other knowing what had just taken place made our desk arrangement less than ideal. I was both glad and sad when I got off work and went home.
I had no one to call , no one to invite over. It was the middle of the week but still lonely is lonely. I wanted so badly to just call Trevor and tell him I forgave him for what he said about me , and that we could hang out again, but I knew that would be a step in the wrong direction. Then I remembered I still hadn't smoked any of that weed I bought. And then I remembered who I got it from.
Sure enough I found myself back at the library looking for that meerkat. To my surprise it didn't take half an hour to find him this time , he was on the second floor in the cookbooks section siting at a table by a window letting light poor into the room. As I approached him I felt the warmth of the suns glow .
Frank - hey
Daren- hey
There was a slight pause, a moment in which no words were spoken but a general vibe was in the air.
Daren - you smoked through what I gave you that fast
Frank - no, I haven't smoked any of it yet
Daren - oh then your here to take me up on my offer
We sat at the table.
Frank - I don't know, I didn't have anything better to do so I thought I'd come see you
Daren -you mean you didn't have anyone better to see so you came to me
Frank - that's not what I said
Daren - and you don't have to say it , I'm your drug dealer so it's fine if I'm not number one on your call list
There was another break of silence.
Frank - so how does this work
Daren - how does what work
Frank- you said youed help me find what I need and that I don't have to be lonely, so how does this work
Daren - I think your confusing me with a therapist
Frank- because you tend to say therapist type things and get deep or talk about stuff that's uncomfortably private
He laughed a little.
Daren- I don't know how to help you I barely even know you , all I can do is tell you what I see
Frank - ok what do you see
Daren - a sad dog with little to no friends and no relationships
Frank - I think we've established that I don't have many friends
Daren - alright then what are you doing about it
Yet another pause took the room.
Frank - I guess I'm talking to you
Daren - you want me to be your friend
Frank- sure , why not
Daren - "sure why not" is a pretty lousy reason to become friends
Frank- well its a reason
Daren - that it is , your a funny guy Frank, I don't mean to laugh at your pain but you deal with things in a very funny way
I blushed a little but not enough to see through my furr.
Daren - if you really want me as a friend do something for me
Frank - what
Daren - don't smoke the weed
Frank - what , but I paid you $50 for it
Daren - I can't be friends with a drug user
Frank - but you sell bugs
Daren - I gotta eat and it pays well , but that doesn't mean I'm friends with my customers
Frank - your serious
Daren - yes
Frank - will you give me my money back
Daren - like I said , I gotta eat
I took a moment before I hesitantly put the bag of weed on the table. Daren quickly grabbed it and put it in his bag under the table.
Daren - I said don't smoke it that didn't mean toss it on the table, we're in a library Frank
Frank - sorry
He laughed a little and I did too , I found myself looking into his eyes.
Daren - let's not do that
Frank - do what
Daren - I can see how your looking at me , if you really want my help then take this piece of advice, don't fall in love with a guy just because he's nice or even if he's a friend
Frank - I'm not falling in love with you , that's crazy
Daren - sure it is, just keep the puppy eyes to yourself , friend does not equal relationship
Frank - ok ok I got it
He smiled at me again, and I wanted to smile back but I stopped myself.
Frank- so why are you always at the library
Daren - oh I live here
Frank - your homeless
Daren - I just said I live here
Frank - a library isn't a home
Daren - sure it is , my apartment is on the third floor
Frank - really
Daren - yea I had them build it in when my dad built the place
It took me a moment to put two and two together.
Frank - your dad built this place
Daren - yea
Frank - but this library was built by ... by
Daren - My dad
Frank- the mayor
Daren - former mayor, the old guy hasn't been in office for five years now
Frank - but he was still the mayor, and he owns this building and most of the community buildings in town
Daren - actually he owned this building but he gave it to me my last birthday
Frank - if your dad is the mayor
Daren - former mayor
Frank - whatever, then why do you sell drugs
Daren- because I get to meet people like you
Frank - you mean lonely people
Daren - I mean different people
Frank- can I get my money back then
Daren - your a funny guy Frank
He stood up and started walking to the stairs as he laughed a little. He motioned for me to follow him and i did.
Daren - you know there's nothing wrong with being alone , it's just a state of mind that makes people think they need other people
Frank - yea maybe.
I reached the third floor and walked down a hallway until we came to a locked door that Daren had the key to. We walked inside and it was his apartment. It was a very nice place , the walls were decorated in what was clearly very expensive art his tables and chairs were modern and all the details and decorative elements to the place gave off a general rich feel. It was bright from there being so many windows. He even had one of those rich people giant fish tanks in the middle of the apartment. He guided me to sit at the bar of his kitchen and he sat with me.
Frank- this is some place
Daren- oh this , this is nothing
I couldn't believe that my drug dealer was living better than me.
Daren - but as I was saying, there's nothing wrong with being alone , maybe what you need is to just let yourself be alone for a little while
Frank- there's nothing wrong with being alone but is there something wrong with wanting people in my life, shouldn't there be a balance
Daren - depends on what feels right , I don't have many friends and I feel fine
Frank- but I have no friends, that's the difference
Daren- what happened to Trevor
Frank- he and I are ...... we talked and I'm not sure if he was really my friend or just a person I wanted to be close with
Daren - so I was right about you being into him
Frank- that's not the point
He put a hand on my shoulder and I caught his gaze.
Daren - can I be honest
Frank - I thought that's what you were being
Daren - I'm tired, it's getting late and as much as I want to help you I have drugs to sell tomorrow so I need to sleep
Frank - oh , I guess I should leave then
Daren - your welcome to stay here for the night
Frank- are you sure
Daren - you won't watch me while I sleep or steal any of my stuff will you
Frank - no
Daren - then yea you can stay , but you'll have to sleep on the couch
Frank- that's fine
Daren - great , then good night Frank
He left me siting at the bar as he walked to his bedroom closing the door behind him.
I was reluctant to actually sleep on his couch , it probably cost more than my whole apartment. It was an uncomfortable black leather couch, the entire night was full readjusting. The colorful lights in his fish tank didn't make sleep any easier ether as they kept changing and cascaded up and down the walls of the otherwise dark apartment. Somehow I finally found myself sleeping.
The next morning was nothing worth remembering but the pain in my back made it hard to forget. As I got up I could hear Daren was already awake in his bedroom. He was having a conversation with someone on the phone
Daren - yea dad I'll be there
I knew who he was talk to but I didn't know what about.
Daren - you know I don't .... but dad .......... if youed just ...fine
I heard the click of his phone before he walked out of his bedroom.
Daren - morning Frank, it's not nice to listen to people's conversations you know
Frank - what
Daren - I could see your shadow under my door, I don't mind though, I was just talking to my dad
Frank- it sounded like you two weren't exactly seeing eye to eye
Daren - I have to go to this town meeting but it's more of a party
Frank- what's the meeting for
Daren - nothing realy , but my dad wants me to sell the library
I somehow managed to go this long without noticing Daren was shirtless and his boxers were hanging on his waist ready to fall. He must have known when I noticed because in the next moment he began getting dressed.
Frank- what'll happen if you sell the library
Daren - well for one I won't have anywhere to live , I won't have a place for business, I'll probably have to get a real job and in this town that means working for my dad
Frank- so don't sell
Daren - it's not that simple, when my dad wants something he gets it , and right now he wants this place back
He finished getting dressed and as he did he pushed me out of his apartment along with himself. We started walking , going down stairs.
Daren - it's just like my dad to give me this place and then take it away
Frank- I'm sorry
We got to the front entrance and exited the building.
Daren - don't be , look I have runs I need to make and I'm sure you must have work to get to so I'll talk to you later Frank
Frank - when is the meeting
Daren - you wanna come
Frank- maybe
Daren - it's Saturday at 9
Frank- I can be there if you want me to
Daren - I already planned on having someone else as my plus one but why not
Frank - great , then it's a
Daren - it is not a date
Frank - alright it's a get together then, does that work
Daren - your a funny guy Frank, I'll see you then
He went on his way and I went on mine