Chapter 29: Everyone's Queer
#29 of The Mating Season 4
Chapter 29: Everyone's Queer
When Loryn and Yzlo said they would look after the wives, they were true to their word. They even came out to the fields to help Lea and Ohana with the goats they'd inherited through Lea's mother and to help Zalia with her family's sheep. Aliona and Kira came too. And in a kind attempt to distract Zalia from thoughts of her absent husband and daughter, Kira led Zalia down into the fields with Lea and Ohana, and the three older females took to making Zalia laugh and chatter about everyday things until the worried frown was gone from her black brow. Most of their chatter consisted of Lea's pregnancy, which had become apparent to Ohana after only a few weeks from the sudden darkening of her pink nipples. Ohana teased that Lea was already full of milk, what was her rush? This made Lea blush and Kira and Zalia laugh.
Aliona, meanwhile, was left to sit with Loryn and Yzlo under the usual tree. They listened to the distant chatter of the four females and exchanged smiles. Loryn reclined on his back, his bulging arms behind his head, and Yzlo sat at Aliona's side, smiling his serious smile at her every now and then.
"It's so sweet of Kira," Aliona said, "to help my Zalia forget her troubles."
"Of course," agreed Loryn. "Where do you think Lea and Roan got their sweetness from?"
"Certainly not from you," Yzlo teased and laughed when he received a sharp yank on the tail from his friend.
"She's a good female, Kira," Yzlo went on fondly. "She always was. So traditional, a real observer of the customs."
Loryn snorted.
"Except for that one time with you," Yzlo added to Loryn and rolled his eyes.
Aliona laughed. "Kira couldn't stop talking about the time Loryn took her in the fields when we were girls. I was mortified. In my ignorance, I thought she'd have Loryn's pup before her first mating season. I thought she'd be banished to the edge of the village and made to live in one of those squalid little huts . . ."
"God forbid," Loryn said with a frown. "I would have run off with her first. But I didn't actually pop Kira's cherry, Aliona. You know that. Not until the mating season. And then I popped it again . . . and again . . ." Loryn gazed off dreamily, and Aliona and Yzlo laughed.
"And then Zaldon popped Kel's cherry," Loryn added with a smile.
"And you knew it was going to happen, didn't you?" Aliona playfully accused.
Loryn smiled mysteriously. "I may have . . . encouraged it. I told Zaldon the truth about Kel, and Zaldon decided to go after him. He thought it was his one chance to have Kel before he was married off to you. Little did he know . . ."
"Yes," agreed Aliona with a laugh. "Little did he know that Kel would have him again and again, and me as well."
Loryn stuck a blade of grass in his teeth. "Lucky dog."
"I don't know that being bisexual is such a great thing," Aliona said in such a low, dismal voice that Loryn and Yzlo looked quickly at her.
"What do you mean, Aliona?" Yzlo asked in concern.
Aliona smiled sadly but didn't look at either of them: she gazed off at the distant shapes of Kira sitting with the younger females in the fields. "I once had a crush on Kira . . . when we were pups. We've been best friends all our lives, as the two of you know. And I loved her. But . . . I didn't understand my feelings anymore than Kel understood his feelings for you, Loryn. One day something happened . . . I . . . I took Kira's paw in my own and I squeezed it. Kira looked at me as if I'd gone mad, and . . . I never made a pass at her again."
"Aliona . . ." Loryn said sympathetically and sat up.
Aliona turned her face away and fiddled with her fingers, smiling at her lap. "Kira wasn't angry at me . . . just confused. She didn't understand what it meant when I took her paw like that. I had wanted to kiss her, but I was too nervous to say anything, so I just took her paw and squeezed it. I didn't tell her this. I lied. I said I was just holding her paw . . . She forgot about it and we never spoke of the incident again. And eventually, I forgot about it too. When I look at Kira now . . . she is my sister and my best friend. Nothing more. But sometimes I wonder what life would have been like had it been tolerated in our village, the same sex love of females. But only sometimes. I'm very happy with Kel, but when I see Kel and Zaldon look into each other's eyes, I think of that day long ago . . . that day when I loved Kira."
Loryn came to Aliona's side and wrapped her in his big arm. "Poor little pup, you were. Don't we all have those little heartaches growing up?" He sighed.
"Not you, Loryn," Yzlo teased. "You tend to give heartaches, not have them." He smiled at Aliona and was glad when she smiled back.
Loryn only gave a bitter laugh. Yzlo didn't know that Loryn had been in love with Kel all their young lives and that Kel had never returned that love. Kel only loved Aliona while he, Loryn, loved him. Kira was in love with Loryn . . . and Aliona was in love in Kira. Loryn laughed to himself. What a mess. Everyone traipsing after wolves who didn't even know they existed . . .
"My father died soon after the incident," Aliona went on, "and Kira was so good to me, helping me with the sheep when she could spare time away from her goats. She was the greatest friend there ever was."
"I don't think Kel was as devastated when Gurwin died," Yzlo said. "It was almost as if a great weight had been taken off Kel's shoulders, like he could breathe without his father there to whack him over the head and tell him he wasn't good enough."
"Kel was never good enough for Gurwin," Loryn added darkly.
"Sometimes I wonder," went on Yzlo," if I didn't do the same thing to Keeno, if I wasn't too hard on him. . . . I always tried so hard to be like Gurwin. He was so unlike my father: Zelk was lazy and arrogant and didn't give a damn about the rules and traditions. All Zelk wanted to do was fuck around with as many females as he could."
"Yeah, Zelk was cool," said Loryn, reminiscing.
"Loryn!" Aliona laughingly scolded.
Loryn grinned and shrugged. "Well, he was. Zelk was like a second father to me after my parents split. I'm starting to realize now that they probably split because he was fucking around with my mother. Mom," he said fondly. "Always such a slutbag. I guess that's where I got it from."
Aliona and Yzlo laughed.
"But as for Keeno," went on Loryn, "don't worry about him, Yzlo. He's a bit like Zelk, but he's a good kid. He'll find Enya and make things right with her. If he doesn't, Kel will probably return with Keeno's dick in his traveling pack."
They all laughed again. And in an attempt to make Aliona laugh even harder, Loryn and Yzlo kissed her cheeks until she squealed like a girl.
"Oh, stop that!" Aliona cried, playfully pushing them both away. "This isn't the mating season, you know!"
"Doesn't have to be for us to kiss those apple cheeks," Loryn returned. "Now keep smiling or we'll kiss the other ones!" He tickled under Aliona's thigh, and she laughed again and pushed his paw away.
"Did Kel put you up to this?" she accused, eying them both. "Making me laugh and keeping me from worrying?"
"Not exactly," Yzlo answered, "but he did ask us to look after you, and that's what we'll do. Hey, Loryn, keep Aliona giggling. I have to take a leak." Yzlo rose with a grunt to his feet and received a playful slap on the ass from Loryn. He glared at Loryn with mock indignation, then turned and strolled down toward the distant wood.
"You know, I love it when females giggle," Loryn said presently. He rested on his back again, his arms behind his head. "It makes their tits jiggle, and I haven't seen yours jiggle for a long time. I think I'll keep the jokes coming."
"Loryn!" Aliona scolded. "What would Kel say?"
"Mmmm . . . he'd probably say what you said: 'Loryn!' and then he'd tackle me to the ground in some sad attempt to hurt me." Loryn laughed to himself. He had always been bigger and stronger than Kel, though Kel, in his rages at Loryn, had never cared.
"You know, Aliona," he said, rolling over onto his side. He leaned his weight on his elbow, and plucking up a piece of grass, he tickled Aliona's toes with it. "If you really have the hots for Kira, I could set something up --"
"Loryn!" Aliona cried, and this time there was nothing playful about it: she was really shocked. And not only that, she was embarrassed. Her cheeks colored up prettily and she stared at the distant rolling hills with a little frown.
"Oh, come on, Aliona," Loryn gently chided. "There's no reason you shouldn't be able to enjoy Kira's company. Hell, if I'd known about your feelings sooner, I would have set something up years ago. Maybe with all three of us. Maybe with Kel too."
"But Kira doesn't even like females!" Aliona snapped, her lip trembling a little. In her discomfort and embarrassment, she clenched her shawl tight around her breasts and bit her lip to stop its trembling. She still would not look at Loryn, and she looked so upset that Loryn felt a pang of guilt.
"Hey, hey," said Loryn softly. He grabbed Aliona's foot and gently shook it to get her attention. She looked down at him and there were tears in her eyes. "Hey, I'm sorry, Aliona," Loryn said, sitting up and wrapping her in his arm now. "I just hate to see you unhappy, and I know how it feels, loving someone and not getting that love back. Every time I caught Kel drooling over you, it chipped a little of my heart away."
Aliona bowed her head against Loryn and sniffed. She was touched when he carefully dabbed away her tears with his thumb. "But Kira doesn't even like females, Loryn! She never h-has --!"
"Bullshit," Loryn said with a snort. "Everyone is queer. It's all a matter of how queer you are."
Aliona's head snapped up and her pretty blue eyes scowled. "Oh, Loryn, not another one of your rants --"
"Well, think about it," Loryn said over her. "And this is just my theory but I think it's true: every wolf is queer on a scale of one to ten, one being not very queer and ten being a big flaming queen. One through four are the wolves who call themselves straight: they don't enjoy same sex love, but when they're watching other wolves fucking at the mating season, are they watching hot wolves or big fat wolves with bald spots in their fur?"
Aliona sniffed and laughed in spite of herself. "Okay, okay, everyone likes to see beautiful wolves doing it instead of -- unattractive ones --"
"And doesn't that make them just the tiniest bit queer? Now wolves like me and you and Kel, we're somewhere on the center of the scale. We're Fives. We like it both ways, baby!" Loryn squeezed Aliona playfully in his big arm and her laughter vibrated against him, as well as her breasts under her shawl. "We can't get enough of both sexes, and as a result, we get spit on by both of them for being 'confused.' Personally, I was never confused about a damned thing. I liked cock and I liked pussy and that was the end of it."
Aliona nodded, but she thought to herself that everyone felt a little confused every now and then. Even Ones and Tens.
"And last but not least," said Loryn with a grand wave of his paw, "there are Tens -- that is, the wolves who are like Zaldon. They like wolves of the same sex and that's it. But it's the same thing as with Ones: if a tail chaser had to watch a straight couple doing it, he would probably rather see some young, slender little beauty of a female getting fucked than, say, a female with one tit and one eye."
"Oh, Loryn," sighed Aliona with a laugh. "What's the point of all this?"
"The point? That Kira likes females, just not as much as you. I'll never forget when you sucked her tit at the mating season. And when you ate her out . . . god. She was wriggling and moaning and you just sucked her clit up like a pup sucking a sugar straw. I'm getting hot just thinking about it."
"Careful now," Aliona scolded, her cheeks flaming the tiniest bit. "What would it look like if Yzlo came back and you were hard!"
"As if Yzlo's never seen me hard," snorted Loryn. "We fucked you together at the mating season, Aliona. In case you forgot." He poked Aliona playfully on the nose when she blushed again and couldn't look at him.
"Now about this Kira thing," Loryn went on, and Aliona stiffened in his arm.
"Loryn, please just drop it -- that was so long ago --"
"But I bet you still have feelings for Kira, don't you?"
Aliona was silent. She stared solemnly at the rolling green hills, her little fist tight on her shawl. Loryn put a finger under her chin and made her look at him.
"Don't you, Aliona?" he asked softly. "Of course you do. I can see it in your eyes. How many years have you been lovesick, poor thing. It isn't right. Kira should at least know how you feel. Doesn't she have that right?"
Aliona sighed. "And what will happen if, by some miracle, Kira accepts my love? Will we become lovers? Will I visit your hut and share your bed the way I share a bed with Kel and Zaldon? I'm old, Loryn. We're old! I'm t-too fat and ugly to go having more threesomes. Kel and Zaldon and I just cuddle now. We almost never have sex . . . I -- I can't even get it up anymore."
"That's a lie if I've ever heard one," Loryn accused. "Kel was just telling me the other day how that clit of yours won't go down when Zaldon touches it even now!"
Aliona blushed a deeper shade and stared at her knees.
"Aliona," Loryn whispered gently, "what are you really afraid of?"
"She will never want me back, Loryn. That's why I let it go so many years ago! Don't you see that?"
Loryn shook his head, his ears back flat. "Oh, Aliona, you're so wrong! Kira liked being with you at the mating season. We used to stay up nights talking, and she would always harp on about how it wasn't fair: we males always got to gang up on the females, but they never got to gang up on us. She used to joke that she wished you and she could have raped me. If only the two of you could've . . ." Loryn laughed, gazing off into the distance. "I think Kira loves you more than she understands, Aliona. And you know why that is? Because Kira is a One and you're a Five. Mmm . . . on second thought, Kira is more of a Three. I think she likes females more than she'll admit."
"But, Loryn, I've -- I've never even been with a female!" Aliona cried, which wasn't true in the least: she had been with Arorta, Nisma, and Nasma several years ago when she was taken by Eloein, and she had never known such ecstasy. But it had been several years -- decades -- and now she was old and scared . . . She hadn't licked a pussy or sucked a tit since the mating season when she was with Kira. She wouldn't even know how to please a female! And what would Kel say? And would Kira even find her attractive? She held back more tears of humiliation and couldn't believe it suddenly that she was sitting under a tree with Loryn and having this bizarre conversation. Oh, why had she ever mentioned Kira?
"Well, now's your chance. Why should Kel have a lover and you can not? We'll do it tonight. I'll talk to Kira."
Aliona's face was never so red, and reminding Loryn a great deal of Kilyan, she started to stammer, "L-Loryn -- you know I'm too old and -- I -- I've gained so much w-weight --"
"Oh, Aliona, come off it! You're still as sexy as the night we all fucked you in the woods. This little waist, those pretty eyes, these big tits that just get bigger and bigger as the years go by . . . ."
Aliona let out a little cry when Loryn playfully slapped a paw on her shawl. She grabbed her breasts to stop them smacking each other and was glad no one down in the fields seemed to have noticed. Yzlo had returned from the woods and had paused to speak with Kira and the others. Now he was making his way toward the tree again, and Aliona was suddenly very grateful.
"Just come to our hut tonight," Loryn whispered in her ear as Yzlo approached. "Zalia can stay with Lea and Ohana. She needs to be around females her own age sometimes anyway."
Before Aliona could protest, Yzlo sat down.