That Gay Goth Dog - A Year Gone By. Part 1.
#65 of That Gay Goth Dog
Just a start, i gotta get back into this swing again!
Do you honestly know how insane you trully are? I mean... Does a mentally insane pationt know that they are insane? Or is it just everyday life for them?
"Fuck" I said softly under my breath.. I laid in my own apartment, the ceiling fan above me spinning slowly, wiich caused my mind, for some odd reason, to make a drum beat to the tempo of the fan. In minuets i had a full song."Hayden?" i said softly. already knowing what i was going to hear. Nothing. Its been about 3 months now since me and Hayden broke up. It was a long time coming, i guess. I Guess that in the long run going through hell together dosnt mean your ment for eachother.. One day that one person you love could just walk out of your life, as if you never meant a single thing to them. And now i live that life. "Hello, 'If you read this then you know what has happened. I leave my drumkit to Nate, Chad and Hayden. Please, Mother, if you read this before anyone, make sure the band knows.. I'm Sorry..'"I can't" I growled loudly to my self. "WHY?! Why did you lie to me, you messed with my heart, the one thing i told you never to do, and you did it... You told me you loved me." I growled once more and picked up my dads old hunting knife from its stand and stabbed it into my desk. "Gah!" i yelled as tears fell down my cheek, soaking my shorts. "where do i go from here?" i asked my self then looked outside, to the dead of night. "The friends i once had now gone, years torn apart. Everything i once head gone." I said then fell asleep.
"Fuck." I said and rubbed my eye sockets with the palm of my paw. I looked over and saw the sun shining through my blinds. My alarm clock, to the left of me, read 10:50am. Just as i was about to get off my laptop from sleeping on it that night, my phone, a black Iphone 6, rang to the song of "The Greatist Show on Earth" by Nightwish. "Hello?" I asked confused at the number. "Hey." The fermiler voice said. The voice carried a tone of friendship, yet slight hesitince. "Hi, Hayden." I tried to muster up some cheerfullness. "You wanna come over? Nates here and we wanna practice." :Maybe, Im sorta.." i paused for a moment thinking about where i was mentally. "Yeah, I'll be over in a bit." I said grabbing my car keys and walking out the door.
"Sweet, see you soon, man." He said in a cheerful voice, then hung up.
As i drove, i turned on the Asking Alexandria album 'The End' and with in no time, i was at Haydens parents house.
"Hey, Dude?" the young husky said.
"Hi." i said then sat down behind a keyboard they have at their house.
"You okay?" he asked and rubbed my shoulder softly.
"Yeah, Im fine." I looked up at him and smiled. But that one line will cause my own down fall.