Sly...
Sly...
(Chapter 1)
A stumble, a mumble, and a slur
The floor seems to be my salvation, my cure
Rock bottom broken, blood flows on the cold concrete that were beneath my feet
Vision clear as clay, I try, but can't deny it could be any day
Seems I was left alone, but my watch & wallet were carried away
Not a penny to give, I remember pieces of a better place as the world spins above
I can't even put names to the smiles from the ones I love...
Rain slowly growing on my clothes carrying more than it should
I can't seem to stand, this, can't be good
No hero, I crawl toward the next street light, seeming farther away the more I move near
Out of this shadowed alley, I make effort to the light, to hide some of my fear
I can't see the end of this night
I feel pains growing from my body slowing, mentality unwilling to fight
Here I lay, soaked to the bone
Maybe tonight, I'll finally do it, I'll give in & pass alone...
Out of reach from salvation
I slip into slumber without hesitation
Thunder from the chaos above wakes me from breathing water, choking among the puddle of pity around me
A must have drank enough to O.D, but it seems somehow, I'm not yet free
The warm light above me, I made it this far
A slide into the roadway, & now wait for the nearest car...
Pouring all around, they wouldn't see me, if they do hit me, they wouldn't even hear a sound
It's not so bad, facing the sky with light flashes so beautiful, I can go with no regret
I see the headlights now, eyes closed, I hear the hard hitting of breaks, & yet...
The engine stops, I hear voices, dam
Maybe they'll end me, thinking this was all some stupid scam
They grab me strong, pulling me to the car
There's panting loud, it wasn't even that far
Door open, rain no longer hitting me
I feel warmth, dry seating, why....why try to save someone looking to be free
Too comfortable, I slip into rest once more
I'm sure once they find no money, they'll kick me out the door
So still my dreams, I've died in them, so it seems
I can't take anymore of this continuation
I just need to step away, off something & end my shared frustration
I sit up, in this nice place, no hospital, but next to me is this smiling face...
What a beautiful women, she looks tired as she asks me if I'm okay
My pride gone, shame filled, I can't do anything but look away
-.....why?... Why did you stop & save me....-
"Why wouldn't I?"
-....I was almost free......-
"....."
"I'm sorry, I couldn't drive by & leave you there to die..."
-...Thank you for all you've done, but I needa go, I've got a place I'm late to be...-
"Do you think that's fair, I mean to end it all now, you owe me...."
-I can't believe it, she can see right through me, she knows my intent...-
-How much do I owe you, I wanna go with no debt., I'll pay back every cent...-
"...you owe me time, priceless wouldn't you agree"
"...then you can go & set yourself free"
-...ridiculous, how can I pay that back..-
"I'm not cutting you any slack"
-....fine...how much...-
"Enough till your not cold to the touch...."
"That's not too bad, is it..."
-...what first, chores, jobs for you, when can I quit?!....-
"...jus be a part of life..."
"...You can be my pretend husband, I can be your fictional wife...
-So you expect me to stop with my intent-
"...I want you to try & live without any resentment..."
"Please..., put your mind for a moment at ease..."
...I still have choice, I could just run, but I've never done so before...
-...you have a deal..till I've paid back your kindness...-
"...this you'll stay with me for a while?...."
-..yes...my fictional mistress...-
"Do you have a wife, or someone, so certain things will remain a no..."
-A life time before, but I ruined it all, & let them go...-
"I see, please, don't hesitate to rely on me, ask what you will"
-why did you stop...it makes no sense still...-
My old husband was a lot like you, I'd go looking for him in the same place I found you trying to end it all
He's no longer here, he went too far once, & took that final fall...
13 years, we were happy, as long as I tried
All the while he'd smile, every question I'd ask, he just lied
I don't expect the truth from you, but I'd be nice every once in awhile
Promise me one thing, you'll mean it...if you decide to smile...
-....I promise, that much I can assure...-
-...please understand, with the way I feel, I'm not looking for a cure-
"Fair enough...."
"...Ill have dinner soon.."
"If you would, it would be nice not to eat alone, please join me in the dining room..."
-...sure...just let me know when...-
...and so....this is how my new lease on life, by debt., is to begin...
(Let me know if you like this kinda story =p)
(I can write more)
---Thanks for reading---
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